weirdness...i have some...

if this ain't love, i have no idea what's love anymore. 

i'm just gonna wait and try and wait and try. 

yes, i make mistakes. 

and i'm sorry for that. 

at least, i'm regretting bout my mistakes

rather than "what i should have done"

my mistakes haunt me all the time

nobody knows

i hope you understand that

you're a part of me now 

although to you i may be that insignificant

i don't mind

and this is just bloody weird. 

New Quarter

wow.
new quarter
two subjects
two finals
half dead
lagging behi...
...
...
...
...
...nd
(yeah...that's how much I'm lagging)

welcome to icaew application module.

Past few months.

Alright...let's do this. No idea what i'm supposed to do. But...here's what happened since these past few months. 

I'm currently in my internship with Ernst & Young, an accounting (most would call it a 'professional service' firm)...and I've two more weeks to go. Wootzz. From assignments following my seniors to handling an assignment alone in client's place. It's pretty much fun.

And, I attended 2013's Malaysian Student Leaders Summit. Tony Fernandes was Santa Clause who loves the colour red and giving out free money and air tickets. S. Ambiga and Nurul Izzah Anuar and the Vice Chairman from the Election Commission were present discussing on matters 'bout the relevance of the electoral system following the results of the last election. YB Khairy J. was totally a cool guy responding to tough questions raised by the floor, answering them in a very smart manner. His charisma in Chairman of PwC, Mr Faiz Azmi talked about 'learning from other countries', 'merdeka spirit' etc. Rafizi Ramli, an ICAEW member involved in Malaysian politics reflects the quality of skepticism after his whistleblowing  on the "cow incident". MACC chairman is hoping that the organisation would be given more power on prosecuting those involved in corruptions. The session on National cars is looking at Malaysia being the hub for Hybrid vehicles, lowering of car prices (in terms of import duties and excise duties) over the next 3-4 years, National car manufacturers consolidating their suppliers to achieve economics of scale (price decreases as volume increases). 

The college was busy preparing for the International Cultural Festival. And, I was in charge of decoration. After some discussion with ma' mate, Jhanaar, we decided to come out with the idea to build an 'arch'....then realizing that we had no idea how to build one. So, I thought it might be cool to have a flat statue which you could put face on it (I have no idea what you call those). And, I sketched a 2-meter tall statue of liberty out of a marker pen on 3 pieces of mahjong paper. I thought it is a cute sketch, juz a little big (never call a lady fat). And, she was stolen juz right on the day of the fair. Sad story. 

Being volunteer at the MTV World Stage was something that I couldn't understand...couldn't understand why people would come and queue as early as 7 am till 7 pm under the scorching hot sun and some rain. My task was to find 30 respondents to be surveyed...and the survey form was bloody long. Probably the last thing you'd like to do in this life, unless you'd like to kill time waiting to enter MTV World Stage. I've got 2 tickets with an access to cut the queue which I gave the tickets to my friend, coz I have no idea who those performing artists are...well...except for Far East Movement. "Hey...where this entrance is?" a girl asked me showing her ticket. "There's juz one entrance I think. You see the crowd over there? yea..." I replied. "You think? So you dunno la" and she just went off. ("YOU're WELCOME, B%^&*!!!") 

 

And I learnt how to make some sweet stuffs... 

Tiramisu and ingredients (I can't find mascarpone cheeeeeeze)

 

 White chocolate Oreo no-bake cheese cake

(note to self: never put white chocolate as icing. It cracks and taste like 'diabetes')

Also, I got a free ticket to attend TEDxKL 2013. Great speakers. Great talks. Would be hoping more of these with a cheaper price though.

On that day as well I sat for a so-called speaking test. Not sure we were training the evaluators or the evaluators were testing us. It was a great experience. Thanks, Daphne~

And, the secondary school prefects gang decided to have a surprise celebration for Kah Yenn...which she already found out...

This is a circle

the moment of regretzzz not to jot down awesome ideas. lol

The circle of Life: what goes a-round comes a-round. 

I'll update on this soon. 

How my week went

So, lemme tell you how my week went.

On Monday, I'm basically done with my audit files...till I was checking the numbers with the draft financial statements and previous year's financial statement...the numbers didn't match...

I asked my senior about the issue and he helped me with it and handed in my audit assignment to my supervisor who I think she doesn't know who I am on Tuesday.

I helped out with an assignment with another supervisor on Wednesday.

I sat in the office for the whole day and did nothing on Thursday.

I sat in the office for the whole day and did nothing on Friday.

I had plans to join my friends on their trip to Port Dickson but dad and mum said no. Sad story. Very very sad story. It's been a very long time we don't get to see each other and go on a trip together. And, now I'm free yet confined at home. So, I slept till 1 in the afternoon and watched TV and played online poker.

pretty interesting eh?

p.s. mum and dad, you owe me a beach and a great time with my friends.

Graduan Aspire: Apprentice Challenge 2013

The Graduan Aspire Conference was held at the KLCC on the 6th July, 2013.

So, I was there with a few Sunway guys and girls. And, the conference was somehow interesting and fun. The conference and the fair was officiated by the Minister of the PM's department, Dato' Sri Idris Jala. Dato' Sri shared his story in Shell, MAS and finally ending up in the PM's department. "It doesn't matter what you do, just do your best," his advice on fellow graduates, as he had taken journeys that was not of his top preference... He addressed that he didn't want to be involved in politics, having that as one of his "principles", and currently, although serving as a minister, he is not affiliated with any political parties. He is a minister without portfolio. 

Also present were the CEOs featured in the Aprentice Challenge...and these guys are the titans of their respective industries:

Ahmad Izham Omar, Chief Executive Officer, Primeworks Studios
Sajith Sivanandan, Country Manager, Google Malaysia
Sridharan Nair, Managing Partner, PwC Malaysia
Jason Jonathan Lo, Chief Executive Officer, Tune Talk
Dato' Sri Shazalli Ramly, Chief Executive Officer, Celcom Axiata Berhad

Jason Lo made his loud appearance in the hall by coming late, by the way...something very interesting.

There's also a forum with the CEOs and moderated by Sridharan Nair.

What do employers look for?

Jason would like to have employees that understands and are familiar with the company, culture and the market. Having the initiative to do initiate something is also one of the credentials. And, he would hire applicants who dares to wear a skirt into the interview (think Sir Richard Branson).

Sajith from Google receives 4000 to 5000 job applications per day. Hence, besides grades, the applicant should possess the X-factor...being it starting a business and other activities that could gain experience.

Izham Omar emphasized on "don't fail any subject" and "extracurricular activities", like backpacking etc. He is looking for people that could drive the industry and those who would like to create the "most amazing TV show."

Dato' Sri Shazali would hire the above people. End of story. Of course, he is looking for people who are different, having said that "you got to be good looking to be seen."

The panels agreed that core values like courage, originality, creativity and integrity are also taken into consideration.

end.


Not really.

The GRADUAN Apprentice finalists had to take on the stage to wow the audience and their respective CEO of choice. Basically, they have to convince the CEOs on why are they the most suitable candidate for this apprentice job. There were 11 candidates. And, to be frank, I was amused but somehow partly disappointed with the choices of the chosen candidates. I suppose this highlights the importance of the CVs and resumes.

So, mainly...the content was about their life and achievements. I'm impressed with the exposure that they have through participation in many activities, competitions etc. They really live an interesting life.

I can only recall a few outstanding candidates...but I don't know their name.

Jason's candidate:
Both were girls wearing red and black. They were asked on what's Jason's favourite football club. One answered MU and the other one MyTeam. But the answer's Chelsea. Both candidates have a very distinctive accent which made me thinking "is this a story-telling competition?" Seriously, please speak normally. No offence. And, of the whole presentation by both girls, there's not really an X-factor there. But, the catch was on their perception. One of the candidate's thoughts on "I only want to work for the top" apparently was not in line with Jason's way of thinking.

Sajith's candidates:
He decided to turn the game around, by giving an alternate question: What are the challenges Google face and how to overcome 'em?

Of course, both candidates stood up for the challenge and both did well. One from Monash and the other from Curtin. I wasn't really paying attention on what did they really say, but I have some thoughts of my own (having done my assignment on Google Inc.): Google should provide consumers an "experience" rather than merely a "service". In terms of how could Google achieve that...can be seen through their search system, design, innovations, resources, credibility...etc. Another point would be on attracting advertisers, besides the "people who browse the web using Google". Afterall, these advertisers are the ones generating Google's revenue. So, it is vital not to overlook this aspect...which I think both candidates did.

Dato' Sri Shazali's candidates were ok. Both presented themselves well and in a decent manner.

Ahmad Izham Omar had three candidates, which I can't recall any three on them. sorry. XD

Finally, Sridharan (Managing partner of PwC) had 2 candidates which were somewhat amusing and "I don't think they're accounting students". Apparently both of the candidates were good friends and they were pretty much convinced on "fate" that brought them here together. So, they came out with a strategy, which worked quite well. They convinced Sridharan to take in both of them as his apprentice...something very different.

Last but definitely not least, a band performance by the CEOs. Totally awesome. Jason (being the lead singer) really has a nice voice. 4 songs altogether..but I forgot the names. oopps.

here's some pictures:
https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.610370532328747.1073741846.578112245554576&type=1

#Failure

Wow...ok. So, I failed for my application for the internship in PwC. No biggy. 

Ouch...actually it's pretty much something big for me. 

I rarely fail...that's one thing. and it burns.

For once I was being optimistic in what I'm doing and apparently I had learnt to be realistic the hard way. Perhaps I should learn my English better in differentiating "optimism", "confidence", "self esteem" and "ego".

Yes. I learn through mistakes. And, as long these mistakes are not material enough for me to fail. I'm fine with that. 

Apparently I failed. 

And, currently jobless and unemployed. 

Ya' know what's the consequences of failing? Nagging from parents. Lots of nagging...

I have no idea what I'm doing. 

And, this is weird. But, to those who are thinking that I'm weird...I understand...but, I'm not...seriously. 

PwC assessment & interview

Lemme get into the point straight. 

I went for an assessment in PriceWaterhouseCoopers as part of the requirement of my course structure. We were tested on numerical reasoning and English. And...wow...I'm juz gonna be frank here...(afterall integrity is one of the ethical values being upheld)...I wished I did better. 

Numerical reasoning requires quick processing on data and accuracy on calculations. And, things get tougher when "no answer" becomes one of the answers. 

I had not much of a problem in English, I guess. 1 grammar-correction part and 3 essays in about 1.5 hours. Essay questions were something like "why do you wanna become an accountant?", a clarification letter and a decision making question. 

On the 25th, I attended the interview. Woke up at 2 in the morning juz to prepare (I had a NLP course in the afternoon and I was kinda sick when I came home due to the haze) for the interview...ya' know...the typical stuffs: strengths, weakness and "tell me something about yourself". Then I went back to sleep at 5 and had a tough time waking up at 0630. Mum dropped me at the KTM station and I arrived at KL Central and decided to have coffee. Mc Donald's was pretty crowded (as it always been) so I switched to Burger King. And I'm glad it was a wise choice indeed. lol. But, waiting for my coffee was taking like eternity (seriously), which I think explains why not many eat there...because they're sloooooooow... Still, they serve nice food. 

For one hour I spend in BK talking to myself. I know...those weird stares thinking "ohh...this poor crazy child in a smart suit is seriously crazy."

I saw my classmate who was in the same interview slot as I am...and yea...she ignored me. It's as if I'm really invisible or something. But, to not ruin her day, I just kept silent as we walked into the office. 

"Because you're applying the job which is of long-term prospect, you'll be interviewed according to the standard of an associate applicant"
"ok~"

The head of recruit of PwC entered the room which I was seated and we talked. Questions asked were based on the contents of the resume. It'd be like "What did you do in the ____?" and "What do you think about ____?" and "What did you learn from ____?" and "You mentioned about _____, what do you mean?" and "What are the challenges faced?" and "How did you overcome the problem?" etc. 

As a result, I was talking about rice production, geographical stuffs, people relationships, the haze, youth and all sorts of weird stuffs. The questions were asked in a very sharp manner and sometimes I had trouble answering them. But, I wasn't as nervous as I expected to be, cuz I tend to be much more nervous in front of HER...so...no biggy here. 

I answered the questions emphasizing on 'challenges', 'growth' and 'confidence in business'. 

And, I finished my interview in 30 minutes time, rather than the supposed-to-be-45-minute interview. I wonder if it's a bad thing. 

Well, what done is done. And, I had Starbucks. And, I hope I could get the job.
P/S: I'm sorry. Many things (actually just one) is eating off my soul and my thinking capacity. I've been acting in stupid ways and awkward ways. But, that's juz a part of me that I've to deal with...alone. It's like I'm living my life based on someone else and I know it's unhealthy, but I can't help it. I'll talk about it soon...when things get better (I hope). 

I shall update on the NLP course soon. 

A day of randomness...

Apparently the car can't handle me. So, we sent the car to the workshop...and the bill amounted close to four zeros. Ouch...

And today is most probably the day I read a celebrity magazine (what do you call these magazines?) and a women's magazine. and, the newspaper as well.

And I cleaned the house...

What's the thing you want most?

So, I finished 6 papers of the CFAB course. And, here comes internship. I've got an assessment tomorrow and have no idea how am I supposed to go through. And, I have a feeling that it's not gonna be easy. 

But, enough of that. 

Somehow, other things don't matter anymore. I have no idea what love, infatuation and all those bloody stuffs are, but they are pretty much a strong emotion. Strong enough to have me suffocated, and do crazy things. And, I have no idea what I'm doing. It's just kinda hard to explain. 

And, I'm confused. 

Perhaps I just let opportunities passed by me last time (few times). And, they all say that "good things come to those who wait". Nay...it just makes me desperate. It's been really weird for me not to write posts about feelings, but rather on thoughts on life. But, what's life without these feelings. But, they're interdependent and it's a mutual relationship. 

First, you thought you have better things to do in live. All the way in life, I kept convincing myself that "I need to focus on my studies". First, there's PMR, then SPM, then CFAB exams. I had the perception that to have a so-called relationship requires lots of time and resources and everything. Then, I realised that I have just wasted equal amounts of time thinking about these people, which apparently, leads to nowhere. So, might as well, take a leap of faith. 

Then, I read something about Jesus on 'selfless love'. Love, if done in the right way, is not just about sacrifices. It is in fact, the relationship on how we cherish and support each other. It is the way on how to get the best of you and your partner. To get the best of both worlds. Business books said that 'synergy' is merely a term that optimistic people use to achieve goals. That's because business is not love. And, all the way through our lives, we have misinterpreted on how we should live our lives. And, that's how Jesus died (just saying). It is not a tool to show off, nor it is a tool to trigger jealousy. 

Then, I started noticing people. I started to judge. And, I have a horrible sense of judgement. Perhaps I didn't realise. Perhaps I freaked out. But, there's just something in that person that captivates me. I used to fall for people's personality, people's way of speaking, people's appearances, people's eyes. You'd start noticing and finding similarities and differences. Yea...and I'm telling you, I don't turn my head around twice to look at someone. You started to doubt that it's some kind of puppy love, until that person is everything you can relate to. That feeling gets stronger and you can't focus on your studies. Seriously, that was hell. For 4 weeks, I had no idea what the lecturer was talking about. My mind drifts away the moment I'm in class. I had no enthusiasm in attempting the questions (even when the lecturer offered money). I was lagging behind....the tip of the tail. And, after class, I would excuse myself and say "I'm gonna contemplate life." And, every time the lecturer asked on why didn't I finish my tutorials and questions, I would just smile as if I'm a fool or me thinking that he's a fool. 

That feeling of that person gaining control over your sanity, rationality, appetite, thoughts and even dreams. And, it lasts for weeks. You know it's too late to turn back and pretend as if everything is normal. 

Worse? Seeing that person with another guy. Ouch. Yes. It's called jealousy. But, there's nothing much you can do. I have no idea how should I react to it. And, it is really awkward and weird and painful. Perhaps, I'm just too sensitive. 

Mockz and finals are approaching. You realised that you need to cope with these feelings. I can't concentrate at the first place, I was staring blankly at the book for 1 hour the first time I tried to study. 

But, then, it all falls into place. 

I'm not sure if I've just turned into a girl or what on somehow expressing my feelings like this. 

And, I'm sorry. 

How can we sail to an island that nobody can find, with a compass that doesn't work?"

"Aye, the compass doesn't point north, but we're not trying to find north, are we?"

#Lost

These few weeks have been pretty weird lately.
I lost weight...4 kg for not having the appetite to eat and had coffee for dinner.

I think I'm weird, too. Thinking of people. In fact...over-thinking about somebody.
Ouch...I can't really focus on my studies.
I used to recall that I could pass my exams without putting much time and effort into my studies. Apparently now I have to put in quantity as well, rather than quality alone.
My studies is pretty much a mess now. Mockz was yesterday. Finals next Sat.

I think I have a weird sense of imagination.
The eye contact was pretty convincing.
But, am I getting the wrong idea?
I'm lost.

http://www.tumblr.com/tagged/lilo%20stitch?before=40

and...
let's give it a try.

Timing

I didn't realise that things have drawn that close. 

I've been spending a few weeks not studying, but reading on some irrelevant books and...contemplating life. And, I thought that sometimes we just have to do things in a mild and subtle way. Turned out that I was too complacent with my current progress...nonono....I'm still not talking about my studies. 

I thought I was making progress. Apparently, it was too slow... 

And things never turned out of what I expected...and that's pretty cool.

Then I realised that I have a horrible sense of timing.

But, 

it's time to make things happen.  

http://dujs.dartmouth.edu/news/stem-cells-the-solution-to-live-more-than-100-years/attachment/time

Puzzles

"The first impression is the most essential thing when meeting people"
"Never let anybody take advantage of you"
"Seize every opportunity"
"Everybody is selfish"

I screwed all of them up...all of the above.

Sometimes, we just have to wait.
Sometimes, we just have to learn how not to think.
Sometimes, we just have to let go.
Sometimes, we are doing things in the weirdest ways.

Eventually, everything will fall in place.


Still...no regrets.

Skyfall

A couple of days ago, I was in a pretty much devastating state. I would be sitting alone and contemplating life. Most of the time I'd be over-contemplating, fantasizing things that could (but never) happen. I could have got high without drugs. Somehow, everything get stuck together, tangling like a ball of....earphones.....(sorry...I can't think of any other example)

The imaginations that I had, the thoughts that swift through my mind. They are just enough to have me putting a rope around my neck...and...get me killed. The past that lurks into you and disrupt your whole emotion mechanism, scarring you again as if the past didn't traumatized me enough. I'm virtually living on my past events that was apparently not that...beautiful. Last night, I was dreaming on a person who ran away with my handphone....and I just...stood there staring. 

That feeling of regrets. It chews you up. You'd be thinking why on earth did you do that???!! Your rational thoughts turns irrational. Your common sense is not so common afterall. You would love to have that change in your live. A feel of fresh air. But, you just don't have the guts. Your thoughts are overwhelmed with repercussions and consequences. This is the so-called 'analysis paralysis'. And, you...just standing there and let things slip by. 

It's like PMSing. Everything gets red. Sorry. no...it doesn't. But, everything gets a little icky. And I can't get my thoughts arranged and think straight (p.s. not the opposite of gay. Just straight). I guess humans are pretty much of a emotional being. I can't focus on my studies (I still can't). I took an escalator in the wrong direction. Everything gets so damn dysfunctional. I'm like a walking dead. 

What other people say doesn't really matter. The real game-changer is through our own realisation. And, sadly, realisation itself is not enough. You need to execute the realisation and see things through. And, very sadly, you need the strength to make things come true. Or, when the situation requires you to. And, believe me, it's worse than taking a roller coaster ride (doesn't sound that bad, isn't it?). In other words, you'll get butterflies in your stomach, heart pumping filled with adrenaline while you head counts "1...2...3...go~!"

And, that's when you've changed. 

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/travel/article-2003840/Takabisha-Worlds-steepest-rollercoaster-Fuji-Q-Japan.html

Mirrors

Aren't you something to admire, 'cause your shine is something like a mirror
And I can't help but notice, you reflect in this heart of mine
If you ever feel alone and the glare makes me hard to find
Just know that I'm always parallel on the other side

'Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul
I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go
Just put your hand on the glass, I'm here trying to pull you through
You just gotta be strong

'Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm looking right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now
And I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Coming back into you once I figured it out
You were right here all along
It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making two reflections into one
'Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

Aren't you something, an original, 'cause it doesn't seem merely assembled
And I can't help but stare 'cause I see truth somewhere in your eyes
Ooh I can't ever change without you, you reflect me, I love that about you
And if I could, I would look at us all the time

'Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul
I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go
Just put your hand on the glass, I'm here trying to pull you through
You just gotta be strong

'Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm looking right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now
And I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Coming back into you once I figured it out
You were right here all along
It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making two reflections into one
'Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

Yesterday is history
Tomorrow's a mystery
I can see you looking back at me
Keep your eyes on me
Baby, keep your eyes on me

I don't wanna lose you now
I'm looking right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now
And I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Coming back into you once I figured it out
You were right here all along
It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making two reflections into one
'Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

You are you are the love of my life
You are you are the love of my life
You are you are the love of my life
You are you are the love of my life
You are you are the love of my life
You are you are the love of my life
You are you are the love of my life
You are you are the love of my life
You are you are the love of my life
You are you are the love of my life

Now you're the inspiration for this precious song
And I just wanna see your face light up since you put me on
So now I say goodbye to the old me, it's already gone
And I can't wait wait wait wait wait to get you home
Just to let you know, you are........

Fear

Elizabeth Swann: Because you and I are alike, and there will come a moment when you have a chance to show it. To do the right thing.
Jack Sparrow: I love those moments. I like to wave at them as they pass by.
Elizabeth Swann: You'll have the chance to do something... something courageous. And when you do, you'll discover something: that you're a good man.
Jack Sparrow: All evidence to the contrary.
Elizabeth Swann: No, I have faith in you. Want to know why?
Jack Sparrow: Do tell, dearie.
Elizabeth Swann: [persuasive] Curiosity. You're going to want it. A chance to be admired. And gain the rewards that follow. You won't be able to resist. You're going to want to know... what it tastes like.
Jack Sparrow: I do want to know what it tastes like.

There would be a point in our lives, (perhaps just mine) that we (or just me) feeling desperate for a change in ourselves. But, we are just somewhat afraid to take the leap of faith. We are just being too complacent to push ourselves towards a better self. That's when you found yourself ripping apart by both your thoughts and current self.

Oh yea...before I get any further, this is not a post on the Malaysia 13th general election. I'm not affiliated with any political parties or influences. I'm still under 21, but that doesn't mean that I don't care about my country.

Where was I? Oh...yes..the struggle.

And that's the moment when opportunity ran towards you, but you're just too busy with yourself. The ghastly fact that opportunity was right in front you and you realised that it's just right in front charging gracefully. And the ghastly moment that it just pass right through you. Yes...through.... And you failed to put yourself together.

You pretended you didn't to notice.
You pretended that you're strong to let go.

But, you know that you've just committed something plain stupid. Something that you'd regret for the rest of your life. And your inner muse just went dead and you felt so lifeless. You ought to have time to prepare yourself, but that's not always true and that's always not true. It's just pathetic living that way and I hate it.

Well, that's not my first time doing such bloody stuff. And every time such thing happens, I just feel like killing myself.

Seriously, I hated it.

For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and self discipline

                                                                                             ~ Timothy 1:7

 

http://images.wikia.com/pirates/images/2/25/Kraken_mouth_DMC.jpg

Doing the right thing.

Achieving Dreams: Tian Chad

Finally, I got a chance to meet one of the most celebrated blogger in Malaysia, Tian Chad. My first impression towards him was "wow. he's really tall." Well, that's the problem of not meeting with people in real life for the first time, because pictures and photos may be misleading. But, that's not the point here.

In his casual cool outfit, Tian Chad shared his experience on how he became a freelance blogger. Graduated from UTAR in Biotechnology, he worked and apparently resigned. He pursued his passion in blogging which he started back in his university years. Though many would sound skeptical about such bold decision, his dedication in this field has fruited him with lots of incentives.

Besides the earnings he earned from hosting of NuffNang's advertisements, Tian Chad has won himself exclusive opportunities and gifts through the participation of various contests and activities. He was the runner up and grand prize winner for My Selangor Story blogging contest 2010 and 2011 respectively and the  Samsung Global Blogger winner 2012, just to name a few. Also, he enjoyed the privilege to witness Formula 1 and concerts from a close-up view.

Having himself equipped with professional photography skills, he launched Sky Arts Production in 2012, which specializes in wedding photography as well as in covering major events around KL. Tian Chad has been able to maximise his potential of himself and unleash the beauty the subject. This could be seen through his angles while shooting photographs.

We enjoyed the session with him being able to gain exposure by just blogging. Well, of course, blogging isn't merely about blogging. It requires the discipline to attend to the emails and to update his blog to retain and attract more viewers. By accommodating to his target audience, tianchad.com has risen to be a hub for events organised by companies from various sectors.

Alongside with the motto of 永遇乐 which literally means "continuous encounter of happiness", I believe that Tian Chad has been exemplary among the Y-Generations as "doing what you love" rarely equates with "sustaining my own life."

http://www.tianchad.com/

Cruel April

Hello. April has been cruel. As a matter of fact, I've lost two friends.
It's not just a typical breakup or arguments, it is a departure that is eternal.

Vinod departed on 4th April, 2013.
We were in the same company in National Service, and we share the same dorm.
We wake each other up when one of us is so reluctant to crawl off from the bed at 6 in the morning.
We created our own handshakes.
We learnt each other's languages.
We helped each other out.
We generated more than ideas. We created more than teamwork.

It's a synergy of friendship.

Sin Yiap appeared on the local newspaper.
The China reported:
'Merit student addicted to online gaming, staying up till late nights, dies of cardiac arrest.'

There are controversies going on on the credibility of the report as many doubt that so. 

Frankly, it's been a long time I didn't got in touch with him. 

We knew each other when we were in Kadet Remaja Sekolah back in secondary. 

We went through the same training.

wearing the same uniform.

being punished together.

It's the sweet sweat of team spirit and friendship.

I know I am not well at expressing feelings, so here's something that we all share during our times during secondary education...

“Out, out, brief candle! Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player that struts and frets his hour upon the stage and is heard no more. It is a tale told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, signifying nothing.”

― William Shakespeare, Macbeth

Don't get me wrong on why I chose this quote. In fact, these people has done the exactly the opposite.

They rekindle flames. With their spirits ever so magnificent and glaring, the light their paths, with a shadow lying long on the ground. A player of life that God would be impressed, leaving foot prints of his steady pace, and his trails never washed away. It is a tale that signifies a journey. A great story. 

That story, I hope, won't just end here

Inception

There's a fine line between Akrasia and procrastination.
Akrasia (pronounced “ah-KRAH-see-ah”) is the experience of realizing an action would be in your best interest… but you don’t do it.

(from: http://book.personalmba.com/akrasia/)

But that's not the point. The point is when dealing with both of them, and I face both problems all the time. 

Many people, me as well think that it's largely due to the perspectives established when we see or encounter something. And, the sad part, is that, we don't really fully understand the 'something'. Even sadder, it's even tougher to remove the barriers if we perceive the 'something' negatively or wrongly. 

And that, ladies and gentlemen, explains why am I so stubborn. 

Also, it is partly driven by realisation. It's not just learning, it's the moment when you go "Oooooo! I got it" even when the something is just plain simple and obvious and .... stupid. 

Dom Cobb: Inception, now before you bother telling me it's impossible...
Eames: No, it's prefectly possible. It's just bloody difficult.


Eames: Listen, if you're going to perform inception you need imagination.

Dom Cobb: Let me ask you something, have you done it before?

Eames: We tried it, we got the idea in place but it didn't take.

Dom Cobb: You didn't plant it deep enough?

Eames: Well, it's not about depth. You need the simplest version of the idea in order for it to grow naturally in the subject's mind. It's a very subtle art.

http://www.moviequotesandmore.com/inception-quotes-1.html#.UWO22KJmiSo

the pin-wheel...

http://www.ew.com/ew/gallery/0,,20483133_20613173_21187529,00.html

New quarter...

Hi.
So, a new quarter begins and it ain't no easy task. Principles of Taxation turns out to be something tougher than expected. Especially when dealing with a lecturer that teaches by reading out of the study manual.

Well. I guess that's about my studies. Sucks to be me.

But, at least, I'm learning something new and practical. So, it's not all that bad.

Coming to think of it, work-based learning is just 3 months away after Principle of Tax.
How will it be?
Which firm?
Interviews? CV?
What credentials are expected of me?
Am I good enough?
Nevertheless, it's something different.

here's some photos to chase away your boredom:

No matter how beautiful a strawberry is, it is still easily bruised. 

And, the leaf is kinda troublesome when eating the strawberry. 

(Khoon Meng, Wai Loon & Jing Mun's birthday)

and my assignment goes to waste...

Bridging the gap. Be it the gap between humans or anything else according to your interpretation.

(Kinta Riverside, Ipoh)

A gazillion possibilities. Choices are abundant. But, making the right one is plain pain in the arse.

(Kinta Hotel, Ipoh)

and don't starve yourself.

And don't waste food. 

(Ma Bou Wan Tan Mee restaurant, Ipoh)

Life is a postcard.

 

Before the Worst

hello.
it's been a very long since I've updated this thing.
well....this quarter in college was not so great.
Similar to Accounting, I had some problems keeping my head above the water....
and gosh....I have drank too much of water and almost drowned.
yea...my exam results suck....all of them.
My progress tests, mock and final....
haiz.

but

what done is done. and, I'm looking forward to the next subject - Principles of Taxation. Hope it will turn out to be something nice.

In the meantime, I'm just gonna relax while class starts next week.

  Let's try to take it back

                                         Before it all went wrong

Faith

Some time ago, I read a story. Here's how it went:

A student asks a teacher, "What is love?"The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the wheat field and choose the biggest wheat and come back.
But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick."

The student went to the field, go through first row, he saw one big wheat, but he wonders....may be there is a bigger one later.
Then he saw another bigger one... but may be there is an even bigger one waiting for him.
Later, when he finished more than half of the wheat field, he start to realize that the wheat is not as big as the previous one he saw, he know he has missed the biggest one, and he regretted.
So, he ended up went back to the teacher with empty hand.

The teacher told him, "...this is love... you keep looking for a better one, but when later you realize, you have already miss the person...."

"What is marriage then?" the student asked.
The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back. But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick."

The student went to the corn field, this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he reach the middle of the field, he has picked one medium corn that he feel satisfy, and come back to the teacher.

The teacher told him, "this time you bring back a corn.... you look for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best one you get.... this is marriage.

3 billion girls in the world...which one?
God know.
This is faith.



Three billion women on the planet! Three billion! And you have to sleep with the one that I dated for a year! Are you kidding me? Are you kidding me?! Robin?!

You think I'm proud of this?! I'm horrified that this happened.

                                                                                                  ~How I Met Your Mother, 3.17

http://allthisbliss.livejournal.com/12960.html?thread=271264


Then...in Season 8...



http://origin.tvfanatic.com/gallery/barney-proposes/

However....




and we all know. God have a very special intention.

24.2.13 : Photo shooting

So, here's a few awesome pictures taken by Kwan Hau. I did some editing on the pics.
And, we have two pretty gurls with us: Shelle Wong, and Steyv Yap.

Steyv

Shelle